i believe i'm totally burn out...

i slept this afternoon for a nap and guess what... i've slept for about 5 hours... i dont't think you can call this a nap. i'm feeling my head aches and i'm totally disoriented.

they made me cry...

it's hard when family members said some hurtful words. it cuts deep and you can't seem to do anything about it. 

you want so much to lash out and hurt the person who hurt you but you keep silent...

you tried so hard to overcome the feeling but until it is still deep within your heart, it cannot fade...

i cried while driving... 

i want to express my feelings of hurt so that i can move on and be peaceful again with myself. but it really is hard especially if the words spoken to you is about your whole being...

it makes you feel like not worthy, no one, a burden and it will be more okay if you're not in the picture...

so i keep repeating to myself...

God loves me...

He accepts me...

He made me like this...

I'm special to him...

thank you Lord God for loving me...

i'm feeling so tired...

maybe i'm burn out bcoz of work...

or maybe because i'm not sleeping that well...

i have to recharge.

i really hope i can sleep well tonight...

today, we have a new employee and she seats across me so i have someone to talk to and i like it (just realized i'm that talkative)

i'm excited for the new place that we're going to reside. though i know that it will put a hole in my wallet, i'll keep on being positive that all will be well 

i was so disoriented since this morning.

i'm like this when half of my mind is preoccuppied by other things (in short i'm feeling troubled)

so it was llike a struggle working. i'm so confused with what i'm doing and i forget what i should do. it's a blessing that i'm not overloaded with work because it will really make me scream and throw things. LOL

basically i'm half-awke, half-dazed... it's a good thing i didn't dive on the floor or bump my head on the bathroom... 

now i'm feeling so tired and unfulfilled. 

i need to do my best tomorrow...

need to recite my mantra to avoid this thing from happening again.